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circumitus: There's my chippy! (where's my chippy?)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Shortly after this debacle, Rey sees fit to drop them a line because fuck anon and fuck the network:]

...You busy?
circumitus: We know how you feel. (kid you're lost in the wheel)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
Hard to say. How many people are actually okay?

[Not just here, but anywhere. It's a rare feat worthy of a fucking medal.

[But more to the point.]
Do you really think all those things that you don't deserve?

[Yeah. It doesn't take a genius to figure all that "anon" shit out.]
circumitus: Keep up the good work. (it's a 12/12/12 miracle)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
[Maybe Rey would be more daunted by that sort of talk if she had more experience with children. Sure, there was Muscovy -- who now is Russia -- but he is far from being a normal child as well. As it is, she doesn't even balk at Frisk's response.

[Hell, she expected it.]


Why? Because you're a fuck up? Killed people?

[And that sure as hell is no way a normal adult would respond to a child saying the things Frisk has said. Rey just accepts that this is no normal situation. The way she speaks is even different now, devoid of the usual monotone in place of a more upfront, sincere manner of speech.]
circumitus: (503): forewarning i'll probably have done those drugs with you (i wanna bring you to show and tell)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
[It's funny... She's had this conversation before, or one very similar to it. Back home, even. Might be even the reason why she decided to pick up her damn phone in the first place.]

If they could, sure. But that isn't how life works, is it? No matter how much iodine you pour on it, dress it up, hide it... those are scars that'll never go away, and you have to learn how to live with that.

[Her face is practically a symbolic testament to that, which Rey had to make sure she would never forget.]
circumitus: (her comfort is the gun)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
And why didn't you?

[Speaking less like someone who's judging Frisk for their actions and more of a complete third party, unbiased and unaffected by what they had done but nevertheless in a similar boat.

[Yes. This topic rings very familiar...]
circumitus: Insert Warmer song lyrics here. (good lord knows that i'm greedy)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
It's okay. [She lets those two words sit. Sink in for a second or two.] It's okay not to know. A lot of grown ass adults don't even know how.

[Rey is one of them.]

Not everyone can be saints.
circumitus: I ate an entire bag of starburst jelly beans today. and a plan B. All around think I hit all my nutrients. (food confession)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Times like these, Rey actually finds herself fortunate. She's fucking grateful not to see a familiar face from her world since IV, and even then there could have definitely been worse to show up here. For that, she is grateful.]

People can't always help but be scared.

[Pause.] Where are you? Do you mind if we meet?

[Comes to show that Rey is not one of the ones afraid of them. Obviously.]
circumitus: ...and then i realized im still drunk. (thinking 'wow glad i'm not hungover')

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
All right.

[She figures maybe they both could use less time looking at the network and more time outside, anyway.]

By the river, then? Maybe on the bridge closest to the armory?
circumitus: - XOXO dad (time to smoke my breakfast)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
[That's as much of a "goodbye" as Rey's, who simply hangs up and decides to leave her phone in her own bedroom. Maybe an ill-advised decision, given the spontaneity of Hadriel and its residents, and the possible worrying of her roommate. But, like Frisk, she decides that she can afford to fall off the network grid for a little bit. God knows there's enough noise going on in it.

[By the time Frisk arrives, Rey is already at the bridge. Biding her time with her elbows rested over the guardrail with a piece of fruit in her mouth.

[Just as she notices Frisk approaching the bridge, she slides a hand into one of the pockets of her cargo pants and pulls out a pear-like fruit, similar to the one she's eating. She holds it out for them.]


Got you one, in case you're hungry. From the orchard.

[Self-care is not often on one's mind when they're in a state like Frisk is in, and that tends to include remembering to feed yourself. Sometimes it helps having someone to remind you. And, if nothing else, they can always save it for later.]
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circumitus: Otherwise you'd be a dad by now. (thank god you're gay)

[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-26 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[Her eyes turn to the water as Frisk apologizes, expression neutral. However, she speaks with the same as when they talked over the phone:] I'm not the one you should be saying sorry to.

[Times like these, she wishes she had a cigarette. Instead, she takes another bite of the odd, otherworldly fruit.]

Maybe you shouldn't have said those things, but it's how you feel, isn't it?
circumitus: Otherwise you'd be a dad by now. (thank god you're gay)

[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-27 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's probably more of a loaded question than they think. But Rey just focuses on the more important subject, her gaze not wavering from the water below.]

You do realize that you're not the only killer in this city, don't you? That you aren't the only one who's done terrible things?

[And they aren't the only one who has ever considered, or acted out on, the things that Frisk has thought about.

[And then, she mutters:]
This whole situation we're in was built on the foundation of bringing in awful people.
circumitus: Captain Morgan didnt let me down when i stand up it feels like the world is trying to hand me rainbows. (i hate your face)

[personal profile] circumitus 2017-02-28 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[Inappropriate that it might be, Rey barks a harsh laugh. This all rings too familiar with her.]

But they're not you.

[She gives the fruit in her hand a soured look, the taste of it having already gone bitter in her own mouth. Much as she is able to revel in taste now after all those years of being without it, she can't seem to appreciate it now.

[So she tosses what's left of it in the river and sighs.]
Had other me's, too. Some better, some much worse. Hurt a lot of people, killed many more. Can't change that, can't go back and fix things, can't even die. Already done it many times.

[And in the end there was always darkness and solitude. An isolation she is not all too quick to return to, now that she's experienced some semblance of family, friends, the company of others.

[Suddenly, that horrible taste in her mouth makes her gut churn as she folds her arms over the bridge's railing.]


Whether it be by your own hand or someone else's, dying won't change a damn thing. The damage is still done and it always will be.
circumitus: What could possibly go wrong? (11% beer and firearms)

[personal profile] circumitus 2017-03-07 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
Depends.

What makes you so sure that the next you will be "better"? Maybe they'll be worse. Maybe they'll lack the "sense" in disappearing, hurt more people. Too many variables when you've been different people. Becomes a bit of a problem.

So, no. Don't think it's the right thing to do, actually. [Her mouth draws into a thin line as she says this, not blind to her own hypocrisy.] The right thing to do is to own up to your shit. Try to be a better person.

There will always be people who don't like you. Hate your guts, even, wish that you are dead. But it sounds like you've got people that care about you, too.

Maybe take it from someone who's tried the solution you're considering. [Pause.] Or don't. Your choice.
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